Thursday, November 5, 2009


I'm trying really hard to update this but I can't seem to find the time. It takes a lot of energy to find smart things to talk about, especially on my time constraints. I've always been bad at sitting down and pounding out one whole post, even in my more complaining-oriented blog. I'll get this someday, I promise. It was such a good idea; one I was so excited about at the time. I'll get that back, dear readers (what few of you there are), and update regularly. Really.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I Heart Dinos [unfinished]

This weekend my THON organization went on a canning trip. It was my first experience canning, just as it is my first semester being involved in THON and therefore my first a lot of other things such as having a chair position (Kid's Mail Call) and dealing with Spirit Points and a THON child and cliquey capitains.

I guess it's technically not their fault that they think we're weird or have a slightly different sense of humor than we do or feel the need to leave us out of things like lunch plans and inside jokes. I would not disagree that I'm a little bit..."different" than some people, and I hang around people who are "different" too. So when I went on this first canning trip and the group immediately divided itself into two groups, I wasn't really upset when I gravitated towards the couple people who I thought were awesome but everyone else thought were slightly odd.

Monday, October 19, 2009


I've been having some thoughts, with the help of some people that are close to me, and I'm going to start posting some pictures on here and...talking about them, I guess. Tell me what you think, but remember that it's kind of hard to put myself out there like this, so be nice at first. I'm going to try for once a week, but it might be more on the weekends and less during the week because of time constraints. Eventually when I have time and money and resources, the pictures will get better and more interesting. So....*deep breath* Here goes.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Lida Rose

I want to know how I looked, standing against that tree with the glow of the city lights on my face, tempting him to cheat on his girlfriend again. It's a guilty pleasure of mine, imagining what people think of me... I like having this site; it's less furtive than the other one, less dirty; yet I can express myself here, where no one truly knows me.

As I was saying.... I wish I knew how I looked, standing up a few inches, and still a half a head shorter than him, my hood up and my mittens on, trying to talk him through his dilemmas of the heart.

Something happened last night...I'm not sure what; it wasn't terribly different than any other time we've hung out. Only that he was taken and I was not, and we went to what is becoming our spot and walked and talked and kissed. He said today that in his mind, we didn't really do anything, it was just a kiss. I didn't -- couldn't -- tell him that there are two types of cheating: physical and emotional.

What happened last night against that tree? He's never been this to me before.